Saturday, May 29, 2010

Is There Something Wrong...?


...Why did you delete your Facebook Account? No, nothing is wrong. Everything is right. This is a common question asked once one deletes any social networking site page. Most people treat it as what's wrong instead of there must be a good reason.
I cannot speak for most but I can only write about my reason. Mine are very simple. I saw a magazine cover on Facebook Founder Mark Zuckerberg a year or two ago and saw that they recognized him as sitting on a potential gold mine. He has everyone's info including likes and dislikes. Why this is so important is because he has what advertisers and companies want. The truth about demographics. This is how they cater products and advertisement to people. He has all this info, for FREE! He spent 0 dollars in getting what certain age groups do and like. He was holding on to it because as many people wanting it, he was not selling. He took a gamble and won.

How does this relate to you and I? Well, I personally don't like the fact that all this info is being kept for profit when all I want to do is keep in contact with family and friends that I know and getting to know new ones. I also did not appreciate the fact that my kid's pictures can be viewed and ever worse saved with just a click of the mouse. I like my privacy and I enjoy being social but where does one draw the line. Even when one "deletes" their account, you can log back in and everything is as if you never deleted it. The obvious issue to this is they keep everything! Nothing is truly deleted and what I consider to be somewhat private is part of their info that they will sell.

Another good reason for me is hard to write because I do not want to offen anyone but, do we really have to know SOO much about your life? I have seen more senseless updates that I truly don't believe the authors believe how dumb it makes them look. It also gives people a false impression. It makes it seem that you are a loose alcoholic that does not take care of their kids if you always speak on bar this, drinking that, hungover whatever. You have a family and probably are a great parent and outstanding individual but if all you promote is acting a fool with pictures to serve as proof, how are people going to look at you? I also do not nor did I ever really promote where I was, what I was doing or who I was doing it with. Some things are to be shared and others to be private. I don't do this because don't be surprised that you run into people that you were not expecting.

Well, that's my view on it. Peace...

Thursday, May 27, 2010


A cocky somebody, like Kanye West
A motherf%cker but not Delonte West
prefer them NaTuRals to that fake mess
never messed with white even though
their head game is the best
slippin on snifiin
got you drop weight
quickly like fifty
future lil iffy
bad enough I got 8 of em missy
They all got a habit
got to have it
ironic like my chick
with fake tits
talking bout going organic
paper not plastic
get em too much time in the sun and...
it's tragic
uh oh
on the low
these dudes to slow
even when standing still
I leave a blur, GO!
got it lock
XD 40
not the glock
the streets love me
and never pumped rock
see similarity Jamaican
more ways then one
so hold me? that's dumb
got the riot ready for takin
my cloudcicks got them cakin
and me away ain't making none
sense since lock a man perserve his mind
with this grind his hers and mine
line for line
I am already doing time
tormented by signs
of what it is to be and it ain't fine
the world deals with threes
Egyptians, Mayans, now we's
next to feel extreme breeze
and quakes that shake to relocate
when tectonic plates start to grate and
flip it in one take

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

3 Masks


A while ago an expression was shared with me. The Japanese believe that people wear three masks. One they show the outside world,one they show family and friends,and one they show themselves. I don't remember how exactly I came accross this expression but it stuck with me for a decade plus. It shows that people act differently depending on who is around. I don't know if this is a good or bad thing but it can bring out the best or the worst in you. I have seen people reach the top because of competition or acting their best because others where around and I have seen relationships crumble because the real person was not shown until it was too late. For every Ying there is a Yang...

Thursday, May 6, 2010


My soul is growing restless

how could I let it get to this?

seems the more learned lessons

my common sense lessens

full of false starts

and second guessins

when answer is in progressing

easier spoken then acted, I know this

its not the lack of focus

but it's the fear of being brokest

that keeps me in an endless reminisce

I recollect being without many a meal

some wounds never truly heal

that is the why I grind with such a zeal

the hunger pains are far too real

slipping back to that keeps me up at night

promised not go without a fight

is the reason why I forgot how to feel

didn't reinvent the wheel

but I reshaped the art of how to deal

but the cycle repeats itself in this reel

true life cinematics

impressed by actors antics

and actresses tactics

rubbing to close causing such static

ignite fires that can burn your mattress

bad sleep lack of support got me with a bad back

get it? it's friends I lack

and funny enough I got plenty a stack

for that I've had a knack

slipping towards a path of greed

confusing wants with need

neglecting anything without speed

too many females that ride me as a steed

leave me as not a proper example to lead

made the mother of my kids abort my 3rd born

said she would not replicate me a demon seed

that was to be my son

a resurrection of all that I do and have done

would have got us closer to our day in the sun

taking us from being amongst many

to being the one...




... now I'm done.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Realest Note I Never Wrote


I came across this post while skimming through nahright.com today and when I read it, I saw my deepest thoughts and suspicions confirmed. I have always spoken about these points of topics quite frequently but the author of this note put all of it together in a very cohesive explanation. It will truly take me some time to really base an opinion and a course of action should there be any need for it. Recently and I would say for the last year, I have been contemplating a move to abroad. Perhaps this will encourage me to move things along rather quickly. I do it more for my kids and family than for just me...



America:

You have the worst quality of life in the developed world – by a wide margin.

If you had any idea of how people really lived in Western Europe, Australia, New Zealand, Canada and many parts of Asia, you’d be rioting in the streets calling for a better life. In fact, the average Australian or Singaporean taxi driver has a much better standard of living than the typical American white-collar worker.

I know this because I am an American, and I escaped from the prison you call home.

I have lived all around the world, in wealthy countries and poor ones, and there is only one country I would never consider living in again: The United States of America. The mere thought of it fills me with dread.

Consider this: you are the only people in the developed world without a single-payer health system. Everyone in Western Europe, Japan, Canada, Australia, Singapore and New Zealand has a single-payer system. If they get sick, they can devote all their energies to getting well. If you get sick, you have to battle two things at once: your illness and the fear of financial ruin. Millions of Americans go bankrupt every year due to medical bills, and tens of thousands die each year because they have no insurance or insufficient insurance. And don’t believe for a second that rot about America having the world’s best medical care or the shortest waiting lists: I’ve been to hospitals in Australia, New Zealand, Europe, Singapore, and Thailand, and every one was better than the “good” hospital I used to go to back home. The waits were shorter, the facilities more comfortable, and the doctors just as good.

This is ironic, because you need a good health system more than anyone else in the world. Why? Because your lifestyle is almost designed to make you sick.

Let’s start with your diet: Much of the beef you eat has been exposed to fecal matter in processing. Your chicken is contaminated with salmonella. Your stock animals and poultry are pumped full of growth hormones and antibiotics. In most other countries, the government would act to protect consumers from this sort of thing; in the United States, the government is bought off by industry to prevent any effective regulations or inspections. In a few years, the majority of all the produce for sale in the United States will be from genetically modified crops, thanks to the cozy relationship between Monsanto Corporation and the United States government. Worse still, due to the vast quantities of high-fructose corn syrup Americans consume, fully one-third of children born in the United States today will be diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes at some point in their lives.

Of course, it’s not just the food that’s killing you, it’s the drugs. If you show any sign of life when you’re young, they’ll put you on Ritalin. Then, when you get old enough to take a good look around, you’ll get depressed, so they’ll give you Prozac. If you’re a man, this will render you chemically impotent, so you’ll need Viagra to get it up. Meanwhile, your steady diet of trans-fat-laden food is guaranteed to give you high cholesterol, so you’ll get a prescription for Lipitor. Finally, at the end of the day, you’ll lay awake at night worrying about losing your health plan, so you’ll need Lunesta to go to sleep.

With a diet guaranteed to make you sick and a health system designed to make sure you stay that way, what you really need is a long vacation somewhere. Unfortunately, you probably can’t take one. I’ll let you in on little secret: if you go to the beaches of Thailand, the mountains of Nepal, or the coral reefs of Australia, you’ll probably be the only American in sight. And you’ll be surrounded crowds of happy Germans, French, Italians, Israelis, Scandinavians and wealthy Asians. Why? Because they’re paid well enough to afford to visit these places AND they can take vacations long enough to do so. Even if you could scrape together enough money to go to one of these incredible places, by the time you recovered from your jetlag, it would time to get on a plane and rush back to your job.

If you think I’m making this up, check the stats on average annual vacation days by country:

Finland: 44
Italy: 42
France: 39
Germany: 35
UK: 25
Japan: 18
USA: 12

The fact is, they work you like dogs in the United States. This should come as no surprise: the United States never got away from the plantation/sweat shop labor model and any real labor movement was brutally suppressed. Unless you happen to be a member of the ownership class, your options are pretty much limited to barely surviving on service-sector wages or playing musical chairs for a spot in a cubicle (a spot that will be outsourced to India next week anyway). The very best you can hope for is to get a professional degree and then milk the system for a slice of the middle-class pie. And even those who claw their way into the middle class are but one illness or job loss away from poverty. Your jobs aren’t secure. Your company has no loyalty to you. They’ll play you off against your coworkers for as long as it suits them, then they’ll get rid of you.

Of course, you don’t have any choice in the matter: the system is designed this way. In most countries in the developed world, higher education is either free or heavily subsidized; in the United States, a university degree can set you back over US$100,000. Thus, you enter the working world with a crushing debt. Forget about taking a year off to travel the world and find yourself – you’ve got to start working or watch your credit rating plummet.

If you’re “lucky,” you might even land a job good enough to qualify you for a home loan. And then you’ll spend half your working life just paying the interest on the loan – welcome to the world of American debt slavery. America has the illusion of great wealth because there’s a lot of “stuff” around, but who really owns it? In real terms, the average American is poorer than the poorest ghetto dweller in Manila, because at least they have no debts. If they want to pack up and leave, they can; if you want to leave, you can’t, because you’ve got debts to pay.

All this begs the question: Why would anyone put up with this? Ask any American and you’ll get the same answer: because America is the freest country on earth. If you believe this, I’ve got some more bad news for you: America is actually among the least free countries on earth. Your piss is tested, your emails and phone calls are monitored, your medical records are gathered, and you are never more than one stray comment away from writhing on the ground with two Taser prongs in your ass.

And that’s just physical freedom. Mentally, you are truly imprisoned. You don’t even know the degree to which you are tormented by fears of medical bankruptcy, job loss, homelessness and violent crime because you’ve never lived in a country where there is no need to worry about such things.

But it goes much deeper than mere surveillance and anxiety. The fact is, you are not free because your country has been taken over and occupied by another government. Fully 70% of your tax dollars go to the Pentagon, and the Pentagon is the real government of the United States. You are required under pain of death to pay taxes to this occupying government. If you’re from the less fortunate classes, you are also required to serve and die in their endless wars, or send your sons and daughters to do so. You have no choice in the matter: there is a socio-economic draft system in the United States that provides a steady stream of cannon fodder for the military.

If you call a life of surveillance, anxiety and ceaseless toil in the service of a government you didn’t elect “freedom,” then you and I have a very different idea of what that word means.

If there was some chance that the country could be changed, there might be reason for hope. But can you honestly look around and conclude that anything is going to change? Where would the change come from? The people? Take a good look at your compatriots: the working class in the United States has been brutally propagandized by jackals like Rush Limbaugh, Bill O’Reilly and Sean Hannity. Members of the working class have been taught to lick the boots of their masters and then bend over for another kick in the ass. They’ve got these people so well trained that they’ll take up arms against the other half of the working class as soon as their masters give the word.

If the people cannot make a change, how about the media? Not a chance. From Fox News to the New York Times, the mass media in the United States is nothing but the public relations wing of the corporatocracy, primarily the military industrial complex. At least the citizens of the former Soviet Union knew that their news was bullshit. In America, you grow up thinking you’ve got a free media, which makes the propaganda doubly effective. If you don’t think American media is mere corporate propaganda, ask yourself the following question: have you ever heard a major American news outlet suggest that the country could fund a single-payer health system by cutting military spending?

If change can’t come from the people or the media, the only other potential source of change would be the politicians. Unfortunately, the American political process is among the most corrupt in the world. In every country on earth, one expects politicians to take bribes from the rich. But this generally happens in secret, behind the closed doors of their elite clubs. In the United States, this sort of political corruption is done in broad daylight, as part of legal, accepted, standard operating procedure. In the United States, they merely call these bribes campaign donations, political action committees and lobbyists. One can no more expect the politicians to change this system than one can expect a man to take an axe and chop his own legs out from underneath him.

No, the United States of America is not going to change for the better. The only change will be for the worse. And when I say worse, I mean much worse. As we speak, the economic system that sustained the country during the post-war years is collapsing. The United States maxed out its “credit card” sometime in 2008 and now its lenders, starting with China, are in the process of laying the foundations for a new monetary system to replace the Anglo-American “petro-dollar” system. As soon as there is a viable alternative to the US dollar, the greenback will sink like a stone.

While the United States was running up crushing levels of debt, it was also busy shipping its manufacturing jobs and white-collar jobs overseas, and letting its infrastructure fall to pieces. Meanwhile, Asian and European countries were investing in education, infrastructure and raw materials. Even if the United States tried to rebuild a real economy (as opposed to a service/financial economy) do think American workers would ever be able to compete with the workers of China or Europe? Have you ever seen a Japanese or German factory? Have you ever met a Singaporean or Chinese worker?

There are only two possible futures facing the United States, and neither one is pretty. The best case is a slow but orderly decline – essentially a continuation of what’s been happening for the last two decades. Wages will drop, unemployment will rise, Medicare and Social Security benefits will be slashed, the currency will decline in value, and the disparity of wealth will spiral out of control until the United States starts to resemble Mexico or the Philippines – tiny islands of wealth surrounded by great poverty (the country is already halfway there).

Equally likely is a sudden collapse, perhaps brought about by a rapid flight from the US dollar by creditor nations like China, Japan, Korea and the OPEC nations. A related possibility would be a default by the United States government on its vast debt. One look at the financial balance sheet of the US government should convince you how likely this is: governmental spending is skyrocketing and tax receipts are plummeting – something has to give. If either of these scenarios plays out, the resulting depression will make the present recession look like a walk in the park.

Whether the collapse is gradual or gut-wrenchingly sudden, the results will be chaos, civil strife and fascism. Let’s face it: the United States is like the former Yugoslavia – a collection of mutually antagonistic cultures united in name only. You’ve got your own version of the Taliban: right-wing Christian fundamentalists who actively loathe the idea of secular Constitutional government. You’ve got a vast intellectual underclass that has spent the last few decades soaking up Fox News and talk radio propaganda, eager to blame the collapse on Democrats, gays and immigrants. You’ve got a ruthless ownership class that will use all the means at its disposal to protect its wealth from the starving masses.

On top of all that you’ve got vast factory farms, sprawling suburbs and a truck-based shipping system, all of it entirely dependent on oil that is about to become completely unaffordable. And you’ve got guns. Lots of guns. In short: the United States is about to become a very unwholesome place to be.

Right now, the government is building fences and walls along its northern and southern borders. Right now, the government is working on a national ID system (soon to be fitted with biometric features). Right now, the government is building a surveillance state so extensive that they will be able to follow your every move, online, in the street and across borders. If you think this is just to protect you from “terrorists,” then you’re sadly mistaken. Once the shit really hits the fan, do you really think you’ll just be able to jump into the old station wagon, drive across the Canadian border and spend the rest of your days fishing and drinking Molson? No, the government is going to lock the place down. They don’t want their tax base escaping. They don’t want their “recruits” escaping. They don’t want YOU escaping.

I am not writing this to scare you. I write this to you as a friend. If you are able to read and understand what I’ve written here, then you are a member of a small minority in the United States. You are a minority in a country that has no place for you.

So what should you do?

You should leave the United States of America.

If you’re young, you’ve got plenty of choices: you can teach English in the Middle East, Asia or Europe. Or you can go to university or graduate school abroad and start building skills that will qualify you for a work visa. If you’ve already got some real work skills, you can apply to emigrate to any number of countries as a skilled immigrant. If you are older and you’ve got some savings, you can retire to a place like Costa Rica or the Philippines. If you can’t qualify for a work, student or retirement visa, don’t let that stop you – travel on a tourist visa to a country that appeals to you and talk to the expats you meet there. Whatever you do, go speak to an immigration lawyer as soon as you can. Find out exactly how to get on a path that will lead to permanent residence and eventually citizenship in the country of your choice.

You will not be alone. There are millions of Americans just like me living outside the United States. Living lives much more fulfilling, peaceful, free and abundant than we ever could have attained back home. Some of us happened upon these lives by accident – we tried a year abroad and found that we liked it – others made a conscious decision to pack up and leave for good. You’ll find us in Canada, all over Europe, in many parts of Asia, in Australia and New Zealand, and in most other countries of the globe. Do we miss our friends and family? Yes. Do we occasionally miss aspects of our former country? Yes. Do we plan on ever living again in the United States? Never. And those of us with permanent residence or citizenship can sponsor family members from back home for long-term visas in our adopted countries.

In closing, I want to remind you of something: unless you are an American Indian or a descendant of slaves, at some point your ancestors chose to leave their homeland in search of a better life. They weren’t traitors and they weren’t bad people, they just wanted a better life for themselves and their families. Isn’t it time that you continue their journey?

Monday, March 29, 2010

D.C. is for Haters


I say this with no ill will but merely to express what I see and understand. This city and it's surrounding area is very interesting. I feel it is a big melting pot full of different cultures and ways of life. Something like New York except cleaner and with a lot more space. So I cannot for the life of me understand why people are so miserable here. If you are reading this, could you please let me know? I can say that this is a very rich area with a lot of opportunities. It is a place where any dummy can make six figures without a college diploma. The schools are some of the best in the country and the health care is top notch. All I can think of is the fact that people are just straight up bored!!

Don't believe me? I believe many people out here do what they do out of pure boredom. If there is no outlet, the energy will go to something. That something happens to be drinking, consuming drugs, clubbing, eating, fu@king, and hating, the favorite pastime. Of course all things in moderation but when the likelihood of you catching AIDS is higher here then in West Africa, something is not right. It is the abuse of these things that I believe make this such a great place for hate. When the masses are just bored and miserable they hate on whatever is not like them.

Don't believe me??? Next time you go out anywhere watch how the people act. Look at how whenever there is someone attractive enters the room the ugly (sadly the majority) look the person up and down and they start going on the person. So you mean to tell me that the stunt doubles for Precious have the nerve to start downing a chick that looks like Rosa Acosta? You know who I blame? The dudes that actually give these Jaba the Huts the fake notion that they are even close to resembling something sexy. I say as a spokesperson for dudes with half a brain, we boycott these sloppy dimwitted chicks. We would be doing a great thing for the community. Next to recycling, this is a very necessary thing to do. Of course if there was a sense of self worth, there wouldn't be half of the stuff going on.

Overall I have never seen this amount of misery amongst people ever in life. Neighbors don't know each other and it seems everyone is scared of everyone else. Sure people tend to talk tough but the minute you walk up to them after they blah blah and you grip up, what happens? Nothing. Just a lot of flapping. The backstabbing is also rampant. This is probably why there are no friends here. Just people that serve a purpose and out of necessity they align with whomever. Once that necessity has been served, they will not be around. In talking to a good friend who was going through a tough time I came to the conclusion that they would buy you $100 worth of drinks at the bar before they buy you $50 of groceries when you are hurting.

Even within my Hispanic Community in which we are becoming the majority, we won't ever be anything of worth if we continue to discriminate on each other. Bolivians don't like them, Peruvians don't like those and everyone hates the Salvadoreans. It's to the point that they even hate on their own people so go figure...

All I say is I make the best I can of this area because there is some good here but that is for another post. Peace.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Death of Privacy


My ceiling's been set to low
with any movement I grow
Seems to be leaving a glow
neither fast or slow
being watched to know
by numerous eyes
intermingling lives
Judgemental single wives
and their cheating guys
Who what when where whys
see what you see
here comes the lies
are you not entertained?
Iris is stained
preoccupied in vain
focusing on what is me got em strained
reciting my life as if something is gained
more than a conversation piece
not the whole truth not even a piece
cause I date the chick to whom you masturbate
the one with the pretty eyes good chest great taste
less filling got me doubling up my plate
you call it being a player
I call it multitasking
so I can't understand the hate
and it's not all that great
but I did not loose all that weight
cause of the sickness
it's gained through the fitness
discipline that is applied to raising my childrens
and yes I hit their mother on the regular
give her the business
for more than a decade
when I was blowing high grade in the shade
rocking a razor blade fade
at 16 maintained my own house, ask me how I stayed paid?
and the answer will be played
sales on how you set sail
read between the lines
using methods of braille
cause the truth felt
strong blow without gails
what you know bout my high blood pressure
my life ain't all bout pleasure
Cant reap my rewards so hard work is what it get ya
they say I have no conscience
how can I not be conscience
of all I did was not nonsense
protecting what I hold dear makes all the sense
listen I'm deep
but sure ain't dense
but I ask for much pardon
for all I did with a hard on
I can't even listen to latin radio without feeling a certain way
I hope Ismael Rivera could please forgive me for my sex play
with his youngest daughter
I forgot to bother
the details of her and I was just a lay
Great convos had her move to V.A.
when I saw true colors I wanted her away
but it didn't work that way huh?
that was a calender ago
since then who haven't I got to know
intimately or otherwise it's not for show
I move to fast ya'll think to slow
and if karma is a CHICK
that would explain my 2 daughters
I LOVE IT...